You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want, it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for them. Because that’s you, that who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let him go
You’re the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel. Even if it wasn’t always the best of feelings, you’re the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You’re the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You’re the only person that ever made me feel like I didn’t have to try so hard. And I know that you’re not okay without me either, or you wouldn’t talk about such things as you do. I just wish you knew I still loved you, and I wish you would do something with that knowledge. I wish you would grab me and hold me tight in your arms and whisper in my ear how much you loved me more, like you always did.
I tried so hard. You know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine. Now, here I am, trying my best just to forget everything. Every piece of you. The way you smell, the feel of your skin. I can still feel you, I think I always will.
If you get angry, stay silent.
I’ve lived & I’ve learned. All of my mistakes have made me who I am today. I’m not perfect & I won’t claim to be. I trust next to no one; almost everyone I have has let me down. I love my friends & they never fail to make me smile. My family means the world to me. I’m almost always happy & it takes a lot to make me cry. I don’t regret things because honestly, they were what I would have wanted at the time. I’ve changed a lot in the past couple of years because I’ve wanted too. I’m not going to change for anyone though, if I change, it’s for myself. Like it or leave it? I could care less.
It’s not easy breaking out of your comfort zone. People will tear you down, tell you that you should not have tried in the first place. But let me tell you something — there’s not much difference between a stadium full of cheering fans and an angry crowd screaming abuse at you; they’re both just making a bunch of noise. How you take it is up to you. If you convince yourself they’re cheering for you, one
day they will.
I want to marry you because you’re the first person that I want to look at when I wake up in the morning & the only one I want to kiss good night because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn’t imagine not being able to hold them or someone else holding onto them.
Would losing me even be a loss?
It’s strange that most of the time we never think of people leaving and you just think that they will always be around. Then, one day, they are gone and you have this big empty space inside your chest. But, that’s all I know so far. I don’t know if you ever stop missing them or if one day you can let them back into your life and hope that they won’t hurt you again.
People only tell lies when there is something they are terribly frightened of losing.